this is my open letter

Honestly feel like anime is so much better now that it’s more mainstream compared to back in the underground days 

Simply cause the audience is full of more cooler people who I can talk to, as well as more chance of running into people who watch anime hahaha

Back when I was in high school, most people who watched anime were Asians who grew up with Asian media (like me) or complete fucking weirdos tbh lol. The type with no social skills and cringelord vibes (kinda like a lot of the gamer types tbh lol).

Now the fanbase is a bit more mixed and better Like you’ll see celebs and shit watch anime now. Or people you’d not expect to in your real life lol. Not just the weird fucks who would live on 4chan and shit lmao.

Like if I mostly only had those kents to talk to about anime; yea nah, not as fun to vibe with lmao.

Kinda why I don’t fuck with gaming community nowadays.  Most the people on Twitch I met/seen, just based on various Twitch meets I been to; most of them are a bunch of fucking cringe weirdos bro lol.

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June:

18th: Northlane Gig

July:

8th: Stand Atlantic Gig
13th: Amity Affliction Concert
16th: Sickmode Rave

August:

8th to 22nd: Belgium and France Vacation
12th to 14th: Qontinent Music Festival (Belgium)

September:

17th: Transmission Music Festival

October:

1st: Knockout Music Festival (Sydney)

November:

26th: Tales of the Octagon with Bisping (VIP meet and greet tix!)

December:

2nd: Good Things Festival

Nice! I got some sort of party event almost every month this year LOL whee! All these events are what I would classify as a fun party lmao.

29th year Main Quests:

- Get an interclub kickboxing fight.
- Get out of retail work, and into admin work.

29th year Side Quest:

- Find a player 2 LOL

Groups I Hang Around

Let’s analyse the groups that surround my interests and hobbies just for fun LOL.

Emo crowd - Cool cats for the most part. Most seem to have gone through some shit in life and have inner trauma. Most are super introverted and keep to themselves, but willing to talk if you talk to them. Age ranges from anywhere from young to old; quite diverse! Lots of hot girls too LOL. I feel like I have the best chance of meeting a potential partner here LOL, especially since I’m quite attracted to them aesthetically LOL.

Rave crowd - Fuarking sick cunts brah. Super nice and welcoming, quite extroverted and willing to start a conversation or make nice comments to me, always. Mostly SE Asian crowd (especially Vietnamese), so we “get” each other almost instantaneously as we most likely grew up with similar experiences. Age ranges usually from 18 - 38 I’d say. But definitely could go older! Usually the young adult years but. Partner potential? It’s possible I suppose lol.

Gym/MMA crowd - Male dominated area that’s for sure. Super uplifting folk, dedicated to getting the MMA or aesthetic gains. Cool people that I love to make friends with, usually super chill people. Mixed bag political ideology wise - more likely to meet right wingers amongst this crowd compared to the others (not ideal as my beliefs lean more to the left). Maybe I’d find a partner here, but honestly not the ideal situation because it’s best to keep training partners as training partners if you’re in the same gym.

Cosplayers - A lot of them are fucking cringe af tbh lmao. But there’s also a lot of cool cats in them. Usual age ranges from about 18 - 23 I reckon. Tbh, for the most part, most likely not where I’d go to look for a partner just cause of the typical age range LOL.

Looking at this, if I was to meet my future partner organically through hobbies/interests… emo crowds would be the best bet. Looks like it’s more concerts, gigs and music fests for me if I wanna meet a GF LOL.

A Desire

I love the people I know. Don’t get me wrong. I have plenty of mates, and they’re all good cunts. 

But I wish there was that *one* person who I could connect on a deep and intimate level with a mutual attraction. Where we could undress each other on a metaphorical level. Physically would be cool too LMFAO ;) 

But yes. That would be lovely.

My Biggest Insecurity

Do you know what my biggest insecurity is?

It’s feeling unwanted/unneeded. I know I have a lot of love. A lot of people love me.

But bro. I’ve been single since 2009. I’ve worked on myself so fucking hard. I’ve overcome so fucking much, I’m happy with myself, I’ve got hobbies and ambitions, I feel like I’ve just become a fucking sick cunt brah lmao, like fucking Zyzz brah.

And yet. I can’t say I’ve met a girl who desires me as a player 2 - or at least one where there’s a mutual attraction lol. 

Hell, I get rejected for superficial reasons such as I’m not a white boy with blonde hair or some other retarded bullshit. Like, I understand, fair play, we all have our types and it’s a valid reason. But reasons like that definitely hurt me lmao.

I know. The one will come eventually. But fuck me. I’m not lonely. I’m not broken. I’m not empty. I just feel… so… out of place.